Eeep!
Red alert! Red Alert! Danger Will Robinson! Danger! Danger!
This is why I don’t drink.
Apparently, feeling all relaxed and good about the world, I really, really let my guard down. I was prepared to go into the past. To talk about things that we never really talked about before. To finally talk about why I had to give the ring back, and why I couldn’t just postpone the wedding instead of calling it off. But I wasn’t prepared to to give The Man I Didn’t Marry an all access pass to my life. Which I did.
I gave him the url for Parenting Without A License.
Yeah, I don’t know why I did that either. I mean, it’s not like I’m blogging anonymously anymore; I am googleable now.. And the url is listed in my Facebook profile. But The Man I Didn’t Marry is not the most computer savvy guy and while there was definitely a trail of breadcrumbs, I doubt he would have bothered to follow it. A big, blinking neon sign is a whole different story, however. Anybody would follow that.
And before you all start rushing to reassure me that it’s all ok, that I’m probably blowing this all out of proportion, that he won’t bother to go read my blog, he already has. I know that, because he told me. And he commented.
I’m trying to decide how I feel about this new development. Does it really change things? Lots of people I know read my blog–my parents, my family (Hi Aunt Debbie!), various RL friends….Heck, Diva Girl’s biological father reads (long story, and no, not one I’m going to tell you. Not even when the ink dries on the court orders). So, does this make all that much of a difference? I don’t know. I hope not.
Comment by Laura
Who hasn’t done that sort of thing before? But you know, my experience with the loosening effects of alcohol has almost always been that it frees me to do things I want to do, perhaps even should do, but wouldn’t do were I sober. And yeah, sometimes what I want to do isn’t necessarily the wisest thing, but neither is it necessarily wrong, and while I may then scramble - as you are now doing - to deal, in sober light of day, with the consequences of the action taken, I don’t often regret the actions.
I think what I’m suggesting is the possibility that your impulse may have been a good one.
Posted on October 22, 2007 at 7:23 am
Comment by SweetyPi
Ya, what Laura said. Sometimes the loosening of your tongue can sometimes (and I use that word lightly) be a good thing. Even if it didn’t clear the air, so to speak, it may have cleared your conscience a little. Is that really all that bad? Don’t be a martyr woman, you are still human. Besides, who said shameless flirting was for only the promiscuous? (I can’t spell today & I’m not spell checking anything until I start this job!) Have a good week!
Posted on October 22, 2007 at 3:48 pm
Comment by Shayna
Ack! This has happened to me too (OK, sort of, I gave the URL to a guy I was dating…right before I denounced his character…). Oh well…I guess humiliation is part of the high life.
And yes, this is why we keep the alcohol away from you, Kim.
Posted on October 22, 2007 at 10:22 pm
Comment by Kate
Having apparently read a certain comment wrong in your last post I couldn’t stop laughing, have to say that there are worse people who you could have given your URL to!!
Posted on October 23, 2007 at 2:14 am
Comment by Kirsten
I thought all the high pitched squealing and yelling was why you didn’t drink ;->
Posted on October 23, 2007 at 12:35 pm
Comment by webmaster
You forgot the jumping.
Posted on October 23, 2007 at 12:51 pm
Comment by Steve
If I would have given a woman I’m interested in the same information, my “mischievous child inside” would be behind it.
The little rascal would be standing behind a curtain, like the little guy in the Wizard of Oz, giving a scary url and daring the visitor to come find me behind the curtain.
The hope is that you will discover the real me and still want to stick around.
Posted on October 24, 2007 at 8:43 am